Remember and Trust.
These are not the words I was seeking. They were not the words I was praying for. I wanted something more like – BAM! Done!
But my heart and my head clearly heard the other. I was crying out to God. God fix this – now. Be You – show me You. Do huge miracles so my eyes can see you and my heart can feel you. Now.” My greatest desire was a touch from Him. To experience His in a way that was tangible and real. So I begged.
He answered. Remember. Remember that I have answered your prayers in the past. (Like, yesterday.) Remember the times when you brought before me requests that were impossible in your own strength, and I made them happen. Remember all the times I have gone before you and cleared a path, where before it was entirely impassable. Remember all the prayers that felt unanswered until you saw I had a different plan, a plan that turned out to be in your best interest.
Oh, yeah. There are those answered prayers. There are the answered prayers that stack up as tall as a mountain. There are the ones I thought were so crazy I shouldn’t even think them. There are the ones so small in the grand scheme of things that it seemed to even ask. There are big ones and small ones, huge ones and tiny ones. But they are all a testimony His faithfulness.
Gently, He touched my heart again. Now, trust. Trust that I know what I am doing. Trust that I will answer, in the right way, at the right time. Trust that my way is best. Trust that I am enough. Trust that I am with you and I will stay with you. “Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion, which cannot be shaken but endures forever.” Psalm 125:1 (NIV -1984)
Yes, trust. That is what my heart needs. Trust brings me peace. Trust lets me give it all back to God. I still have to do my part, but He will take care of the rest. Trust lets me hope. So, I will trust out of obedience. I will trust because He has proven Himself over, and over, and over again. I will trust, and He will provide.